Reflection

Proverbs 27:19

Just as water mirrors your face, 

so your face mirrors your heart. 

We would like to believe we can mask who we are and what we believe. We like to believe our hurts and disappoints don't effect the decisions we make today. 

Often times I would like to believe that I can hide who I am and pretend to be someone I am not. I might try and be stronger, I try to be happy when I am feeling sad, I try to be spiritually high when I am in the midst of questioning God's presence in my life. What I often fail to realize is that I have surrounded myself with people who know my heart and know when my face tells a different story. 

Yesterday was Mothers Day. I had spent the entire weekend teaching at Canvas's first Women's Retreat. When the kids met me at church they had brought me flowers and beautiful hugs. I was having an amazing day. Exhausted from a long few days with no sleep had me emotionally a little raw. I made my mothers day phone calls and continued to go one with my day. Immediately one of my friends asked my if I was okay. No matter how hard I tried to hide my sadness, I was transparent. They knew something was wrong. It was on my face. After talking to my Grandma, I was just so overwhelmed with how far away that I live when she is fighting cancer. I want to be there to help her and give her more strength. I just hate Cancer. I hate that it holds her back. I feel sad that she does her best to sound strong in the midst of the fight for her life. Most of all it reminds me how helpless life can be and how not all things have answers or fixabilities.  

My friends know me well enough to know my hearts response. They supported me, loved me and helped me spend the rest of the day enjoying my family, my kids and their friendships. I am so blessed that they see through me.

I know that most of us have our things that we do our best to hide. I wanted to hide my sadness so that I wouldn't ruin the day we were spending with friends. If I had been successful in my venture, I would have buried the pain and had to come home and deal with it alone. We are meant to depend on others, God created us to need people. We need to have friends that see through our pretend faces into the very heart of who we are. It is healing. It is loving. It is life changing. 

Heavenly Father~ Thank you for your amazing presence at the women's retreat this weekend. Thank you for your desire to live in our hearts and be in relationship with us. Lord, I thank you for the friends who see my heart written on my face. I pray that in my life I can learn to be more transparent and when people see my face, they see that I have a heart purely for You. ~in Your Precious Name

Pray for Dale C this week